t.@.L.L.HAUZ Cast of Characters – IKARU

IKARU

DOB:  January 1, 2018

Height: 4”

Weight: Average

Eyes: Brown, but you don’t see it because she’s always wears glasses that hides it

Hair: Black with white bang

Appearance: Tan colored hoodie, red shirt, blue jeans, white sneakers, carries red backpack, has two tiny wings on each side of the shoulder

Likes: Dreaming, drawing, singing, booze

Dislikes: Her wings (because it can’t fly)

IKARU’s name comes from the Greek mythological anti-hero Icarus, who was the son of artist Daedalus.  One day Daedalus made a pair of wings out of feathers and wax and gave it to Icarus, who then attempted to fly up to the heavens, only for the wax to melt away when he got too close to the son, which then sends the young man plummeting to his doom.

Unbeknownst to most people, Ikaru is a descendant of the mysterious half-mortal half-god species called the Nephilim.  In the Bible book of Genesis during the early days of Man, the angels of God left their heavenly posts to marry the mortal women on earth, and between them spawned a being of unusual size and strength.  Some time later God sent down the Great Flood to wipe out all humanity save for one righteous man Noah and his family.  All living things perished in that flood, even the Nephilim.  But few have managed to survive and have since lived in total isolation to avoid any unwanted attention from outsiders.

It is for this reason Ikaru has a pair of tiny wings, with the bloodline of the Nephilim in her body.  Sadly the wings do not work and this has been a major source of sorrow for her.  

Ikaru is often found sleeping because she drinks lots of booze which is her way of coping with her sorrows.  And while she sleeps she has vivid dreams, some with deep meanings which she would later draw in her notebook which she calls it Dream Book.  Ikaru likes to stay in her dreams because that is where she gets to fly with giant wings across the colorful dreamscape, and she can avoid facing the harsh gray realities of the waking world.

I AM STILL HERE…

I apologize for the prolonged lack of activity on this blog. I’ve been busy settling down in my new full time job and trying to get everything together, but it is utter chaos right now, both physically and mentally. I will one day sit down and refresh this blog. Meantime you can check out other activities I got going on my social media channels==>

An Artist's Life: Making Art Your Business [Edited 2-9-21]

Art and Business Don’t Mix.

Or do they?

Back in the school days all they taught me was how to be the best artist that I can be. What they didn’t teach me was that I would also need a business degree.

These days if you really really want to make a living solely by your work of art you have to know how to sell them. It’s no longer enough just to get yourself noticed by big name galleries or art enthusiasts in your final year at art school and be taken under their mighty wings of social and financial security and fame. Especially when there are thousands of other artists competing for the same prize. The art world is as vast as the Pacific Ocean, and millions of fish swimming about in search for food.

Thanks to the Internet, there is absolutely no excuse for anyone to not get themselves noticed and to sell themselves to prospective buyers and grow their business. But that is much easier said than done for introverts like myself. Artists by nature are introverts – keeping to themselves and not being able to open up to the outside world. Artists would rather hole themselves up in their studios making bunch of paintings to their hearts’ content than to mingle with a crowd and talk away about their art. (And that’s the worst part- explaining to others what your art is about. But I think I will save this part for future post)

Luckily, it does not take another four dull years of college to learn about business. There are plenty of resources online that can help one to learn the art of deal making (NOT the one by Trump, mind you) as well as ways to promote yourself as an artist. Not all methods taught online is for everyone however; it takes trials and errors to figure out what works for you best.

So try I did. And the result? Wish I had something positive to say. Sure I knew it was not going to be an instant hit, but I guess somewhere in the back of my mind I had hoped to be an overnight sensation. To be honest, a lot of these guides I’ve fished out online gave me false impression that I would see instant results. If I could just find that perfect guide that fits neatly into my needs and situation…but I know that’s never going to happen. I have to go out and find it for myself. As mentioned, Trials and Errors. And it will be a safe bet that it’s going to take a loooong time.

Peace Everyone.

An Artist’s Life: Time to Say Goodbye…

Sometimes you gotta know when to let go and don’t look back…

Well what a crazy year 2020 has been.

Sure every year had its WTF moments. But to date (im my opinion of course) no year could be more profound than what the whole world had faced just last year, in one unforgettable word: CORONAVIRUS.

Who could have ever guessed that one tiny spiked ball of germ could have such devastating impact socially, politically, AND economically, and on a global scale at that. What’s more despairing is that it didn’t have to get out of control like this. There had been even worse pandemic-scale diseases in the last decades, such as Ebola, SARS, MERS, Mad Cow, to name a few. Thankfully all of them had been tamed without so much as a disruption to our daily routines. The main sources of the failure to contain this one can all be traced to the Fake News fiasco, the blatant incompetence of our leaders (one in particular, with a capital T), and then the irresponsible and reckless nature of our selves for resisting the orders to avoid crowding and to wear that mask.

But there is no point in pining and griping about what we should have or should not have. The water has passed through the bridge, the damage is done. Life will never be the same.

And we have to live with it. Whether we like it or not. Let us hope we can learn from the mistakes and move forward, making amends where necessary.

For me it’s time to turn a blank page of my life book.

The pandemic had stumped my year’s worth of plans to expand upon my art career. Art fairs and conventions were cancelled, people were strapping up their wallets and spending only on the Essential goods (of course Art is not considered an essential good) and with all the curbing on social gatherings there was no way to try and make the necessary connections. I had to pull out of a gallery after only a year since I could not afford to continue paying the rent. On the flip side I’ve learned to expand my artistic presence online and grow some of my social media followings. But there was still much to be done, and I cannot do it without any financial stability. Such is the Artist’s Life, indeed.

Beginning this year I have started doing meal and grocery delivery work via Instacart and Postmates and will soon be working part-time at a small firm. And I was able to make spare some time to continue my studio work and building online presence. It was not so hard as I had thought, it’s actually doable if you do it right and with a positive attitude. I will try to document my progress here from time to time so I can come back and see how far I have gone (or fallen back, which hopefully will be rare). I still have my dream project at work and I will soon post new updates on that. I will resist the urge to wallow in my past woes and push on to my goals, making sure to be prepared for any obstacles that will surely come my way.

Let this year will be the Year of Recovery, not just for me, but for everyone. Let bygones be bygones, say Adios to 2020, don’t look back, and march forward. And by the way:

At Long Last, the Time has come to unveil my latest Experiment-

Meet the t.@.L.L.HAUZ – the Gang that Lives in My Head.


Everyone has the three parts of the human psyche:  the ID, the EGO, and the SUPEREGO.  

 I came up with the idea to create characters based on the three areas of my human psyche giving each of them its own unique traits related to my own.  

The ID deals with our emotions and innate desires.  MAHo is an Artist who is determined to make art any way she sees fit, even if she must suffer for it, like a typical starving artist. 

The SUPEREGO deals with acquired knowledge and beliefs, influenced by outside forces.  In this case I created two separate entities: ANNA KISS and ELLEX DEUX.  Anna is very aggressive and outspoken, believes problems are solved with chaos and violence.  Ellex is more passive, accepting of the situations at hand and learning to work around it rather than trying to change it.

The EGO is essentially our actual selves, the one most connected to reality.  It acts as the mediator between the ID and the SUPEREGO, to satisfy each side to the best of its ability.    IKARU is a sad little girl who chooses to live in her own fantasy world where she is everything she can never be in real life, and makes very little effort to try and change her fate.  The main source of her sorrow is the tiny wings on each side of her shoulders that do not fly.  Even though she is the leader of the HAUZ she does not act like one; she is too deep in self pity and dreams. As a result the others run amok with no rules and no order, it is utter Chaos in my Head!


You have met the team, now get to know each individual psychemons (psyche demons for short, I just made that up right now. lol). But that is for another time, so stay tuned…